You and I. Deleted.

Yesterday, I realized a lot. I noticed a lot. I found out a lot. It made me happy, but i was absolutely heartbroken. Honestly, I dont know how to describe my feelings right now. All I could do is laugh at how stupid I was and how stupid everyone else is. I’m so mad, but in a way, I am so thankful for everything because I LEARNED so much from those assholes.

Last night, I wanted to text him, the guy that i once liked so much. But, I didn’t and I’m thankful I didn’t. I wanted to say.. “I finally know why you were mad. I FINALLY know. I think you are one of the dumbest guy I know. you are dumb as shit.. NO, you are DUMBER THAN SHIT for believing those lies and for judging me because of what someone else said.. AND THANK YOU FOR LEAVING because if I dated you.. I would’ve regretted so badly. FUCKIN’ THANK YOU and DON’T EVER TALK TO ME AGAIN.”

This morning, I thought about it and I’m so happy that I didn’t text him because he is not important anymore. He does not worth my friendship or relationship. He does not deserve my love. LOL. And texting him all that would only make myself look bad. It will only start more shit. It’ll only make him feel more important.

“I didn’t do anything wrong. I have nothing to explain.”

I hope you realize your mistake, you worthless piece of shit! :)

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Life is so unfair.

I am not going to Australia for the volleyball program. The reason is not because I’m not capable of it. The reason simply is because I can’t. I can not go to Australia for myself. I love volleyball. BUT there are other things out there that needs my attention. I was browsing through the internet a couple of weeks ago and I saw pictures from the Earthquake in Japan. There was this one picture that broke my heart. It was a picture of a couple month old baby girl that was rescued three days or so after the earthquake. Can you imagine a baby girl..absolutely defenseless little girl.. was just laying there to be rescued? I can’t even imagine. So, the money that I have for my volleyball fund are all going to be donated to Japan. I play volleyball because I love this sport; I didn’t play for fame, money, or national titles.

The earthquakes in Japan made me realize something:

When you complain about how hungry you are because you missed a meal, there is someone out there that is starving and never had a full meal.

When you complain about how cold you are, there is someone out there that is frozen and would do anything to stay warm.

When you complain about how you don’t get enough love, there’s someone out there that have never been loved.. that never even had a family.

When you complain about how much you hate your parents, there’s someone out there that have never seen or have a parent.

when you complain about college, there is someone out there that wouldn’t even DARE to think about college.

When you complain about how much your life sucks and how much you just wanna die, there’s someone out there that will DO ANYTHING IN THE WORLD JUST TO STAY ALIVE.

There are kids starving in Africa, Asia, Europe..etc,. There are natural disasters everywhere. There are animals that are suffering from our mistakes, our selfishness.

Do these people or animals deserve to be in these kind of punishment. No, absolutely not. 

I guess, what I’m trying to say is there is always someone out there that less fortunate that you. Just open your heart. Be happy. Try to help the people and animals around us. You’ll be surprised of how beautiful your world could be if you just do something little for someone else.

Food bank in your community, cloth donations, money donations, animal center volunteering .. etc,. are all wonderful ways to help out.

College is EXPENSIVE and we might not be able to donate a lot, but if you get a couple of people to each donate a few dollars. It adds up. It really does.

ANYTHING is better than NOTHING.

Text “Redcross” to 90999 to donate $10 to Japan. Visit Redcross.org.

Visit worldvision.org to read stories of kids in need. Sponsor them by donating about $1 a day. Isn’t it funny how $1/a day can change a child’s life FOREVER?

There are soooo much more you could do. Please help out. Please open your eyes to the world around you.

Tomorrow is April Fool’s Day.

BELIEVE. NOTHING.

TRUST. NO ONE.

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Daddy’s First

“How much is for this college?”

“Maybe about $1000 or less?”

“No way! Really? It’s that cheap?”

“Well, with private scholarships, it’ll most likely be free.”

“Are you lying?”

“No, daddy! You’re daughter’s smart remember?”

At this time, my daddy have on the HUGEST, BIGGEST, BRIGHTEST smile ever.

AND I noticed one thing: I’m his first little girl. I’m his proudest girl. I’m his smartest. Candy’s the sweetest, cutest and nicest. I’m his first, smart, proud girl. No one can replace us. I don’t know how the third girl’s gonna be. I don’t know how the fourth is going to be either. But ONE thing for sure, they are not and will NEVER be like me or Candy. You can not replace the first and you can’t replace a sweetheart like Candy because she is the sweetest person ever.

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